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nick@npdoty.name four questions, May 3 5/04/2020 01:42:42 PM
nick@npdoty.name four questions, April 21 4/21/2020 11:53:02 PM
Subject: four questions, May 3
From: nick@npdoty.name
Date: 5/04/2020 01:42:42 PM To: planworld Bcc: https://bcc.npdoty.name/
  1. What did I do today?

Coffee, yogurt, granola and banana for video brunch with friends. Did the laundry, and went to the garden, where we thinned out our kale plants, and harvested more snap peas and spinach from one of the neighboring beds than we know what to do with. Had a late dinner of grilled cheese (and fresh spinach) and quinoa chickpea salad.

A pile of cleaned spinach.Two bowls of snap peas.

  1. What did I enjoy?

Seeing friendly faces. Pulling snap peas from the community garden. Watching videos on WhatsApp of Jamie's 16 month old nephew -- who lives a short bike ride / infinitely far away.

  1. What did I find difficult?

Writing letters to the Berkeley administration and still getting pretty upset over the lack of respect in this institution that I care about.

  1. What has changed?

The tedious task of cleaning has taken on a different meaning. It has higher stakes; I'm cleaning everything more frequently; it feels more satisfying and regular even as it's also more time-consuming.

Labels: diary, covid, 4qs

Subject: four questions, April 21
From: nick@npdoty.name
Date: 4/21/2020 11:53:02 PM Cc: planworld Bcc: https://bcc.npdoty.name/
  1. What did I do today?

Emails, a Zoom call on local transit advocacy, more emails. Looked at New York Times recipes for simple delicious-looking things. Cooked eggs and homefries lunch, and picked up dinner (and tomorrow's dinner) at the one-man soul-food place down the street. Talked with Jamie and watched TV.

  1. What did I enjoy?

Empanadas, beer-battered french fries, fried plaintains from Boricua Soul. Deep frying is amazing.

  1. What did I find difficult?

I feel at a loss about what my role is, or even exactly what I want it to be. How can I help? Is what I'm doing useful or not? What do I want to be doing? Why am I not better at what I'm trying to do and why am I choosing those things to try to do?

  1. What has changed?

My mood is so unpredictable. Each day still feels a little random, though I'm on slightly steadier footing. But even within days, my mood can be dramatically different from morning to night. I think I just have to accept that this is how it is for now, and not read to much into feeling aimless or into feeling refreshed. This too shall pass, and all that.

Oh, and I have less hair now. I kinda like it. I think I missed feeling a little weird.

Me, pretty much bald, smiling about it. Labels: diary, covid, 4qs